Subconscious I started thinking I could break National records and show international worthy performances in competitions. But to be able to compete at such a level, the road to it just isn’t that uncomplicated as my mind likes to think. Why are my thoughts suddenly filled with these ideas, while I know that a record is only a record and only stands for a certain amount of time. Like Jorg and I agreed long ago, that whenever my personal best would exceed a national record, the fact that I would perform a personal best is the most important thing.

All these thoughts aren’t beneficial to my performances, especially when my mind couldn’t stop thinking about it. Distracting me from my actual goal in freediving: Getting satisfaction from training hard, performing to my own limits (…and beyond) while having fun in doing so.

Long story short…
I just want to find my fun and joy in freediving again, do my thing and find out why I’m able to freedive when I’m on a total different approach. I will take a step back and I won’t be competing in any competitions for a while. I’ll continue freediving, but with the goal I intentionally started freediving in 2003.

So it’s back to the drawing board for Sanne Buurma!